Feel like a failure
My precious perfect baby is one month old. I love her so so much but feel like I’m absolutely failing. Please feel free to criticize, I am truly not looking for any compliments or anything since I don’t feel I deserve it.
I’ve accidentally let her head swing forward or back a few times. I feel so terrible about it.
I accidentally bonked her head once when rounding a corner
I thought that there would be someone to check her car seat at the hospital since that’s what everyone said but my hospital didn’t do that and I hadn’t researched it enough unfortunately. The first time I put her in her car seat leaving the hospital, I was so dumb and thought the “pinch test” applied to the straps BELOW the shoulder as well and wayyy overtightened it and she started crying so I loosened and looked it up, then discovered my mistake but felt terrible she experienced any discomfort
I really struggle with cleaning right now and am also constantly fighting with my husband. Tonight I was having a terrible nightmare then woke up and saw a dark hooded shadow and screamed, it turned out to be my husband and baby woke up and I felt so bad. Husband scolded me for terrorizing her and I felt absolutely terrible that she felt any fear because of me.
I cry a lot. I’ve cried in front of her before too
She’s a really good sleeper (3 hr stretches since birth) and since I assumed she’d wake me up for feeding (she usually does) I accidentally let her sleep 6 hours through the night and found out she had soiled her diaper overnight, when we’re supposed to change every 2-3 hours, not to mention I’m worried she became hungry in her sleep. I’m so worried that she’s going to have a rash.
I haven’t done tummy time enough and forget her Vit D drops sometimes.
I slept through her crying for 15 minutes once until my husband woke me up
I love her so so much and just feel like I’m really failing her.