Getting hopeless towards God and losing bhakti. No matter how hard I try, I can't get pure bhakti

I am not bend towards atheism as I believe in higher divinity. I am hopeless with how the world is running. So much cruelty and injustice even to good ones and the good ones with devotion suffering so badly. Animal kingdom has its own stories. I think God has abondoned us. In puranas we have beautiful stories about God saving devotees, destroying evil, setting dharma but in real life its all suffering. I think even pure devotion is a privilege of those who live a sheltered life. Because of all this in my mind I couldn't get myself to go to temple for daily visit today. Only answer people will give is its prarabdh.

I am not saying God doesn't exist I just think he doesn't care about us.