How to move on from your MOH hating you?

Hi all, hoping it’s okay to post this here as the bio says it welcomes “guestzilla” stories as well.

You can read what happened here: https://www.reddit.com/r/bridezillas/s/eWnrYzFkma

But basically my MOH was mad at me for months leading up to my wedding over multiple things and didn’t tell me until after my wedding. Where she admitted she was pissed at me throughout my entire wedding day, etc.

I have been trying to fix things since, but she just messaged me saying she can no longer be friends.

Which, from reading all of your responses on my last post, I guess I’m starting to agree with.

I’m just wondering who else has dealt w a MOH fallout and when does it get easier?

My wedding photos and videos just came back last month and when I look at all the party ones, she’s obviously front and centre.

I’m sick to my stomach looking at them, knowing she had already chosen this path of disliking me and I had no idea. I hate that I avoid looking at these photos, and haven’t ordered my wedding book etc, because it just hurts so much going through them.

I’m devastated and also a little angry at this point that she chose to handle it this way. I checked in on her every time we talked leading up to the wedding asking if she was okay and she never said anything.

I’ve asked her multiple times to hop on a phone call since so we can work through it. I’ve apologized over and over again, I’m just struggling to see what more I could have done.

I feel like I’m a teenager again with how all of this has been handled.

How do you move on?