I'm so tired being skinny fem gay

Like i was told that i'm undesirable,masc gay don't want to date me(especially the muscular one) just look at the instagram following they don't follow fem twink they follow muscular masc gay,ashamed by society for being fem,bullied by other men,Like why you fighting for LGBT right when the community itself hate you,It's like you sacrifice yourself to the Masc Gay.Maybe i should try steroid so i can be super muscular lol(i know it's dangerous) maybe just high testosterone and gym.