i think i like girls but i’m catholic

i have deep down known that i like girls since i was 11, since that age i have also grown so so much in my faith. I know that i cannot be with a girl and be in the church. I believe in the church and in the holy trinity, i believe God’s message but i know i will never be able to deny my same sex attraction. I have posted in the catholicism subreddit about this also and they mainly said to live a life of chastity but i know i want to be loved and to give love back, they also invited me to learn more about my faith. I love God so so much, I dont know what to do. I don’t know if i’m indoctrinated, i don’t even know what that means but i know I love God and I want to be as holy as him, what do i do. I am so lost, I wish i knew what God would want me to do. My heart is in 2 different places right now