Anyone find speaking of marriage embarrassing

I find it uncomfortable even talk about it with my mom and aunts, I shut down the convo asap when they bring it up. I tell them it’s ceeb to speak about marriage and they laugh but I’m serious. the thought of having to tell them of a guy makes me sick. even with my sisters or friends too bc it gets me uncomfortable. They know me as type not to care about marriage/dating/men. it’s just not me and it feels wrong too. I wouldn’t tell anyone until I have to