41yo man.....sober and lonely
Just graduated my fourth time in rehab. I've been doing everything I can to stay sober and improve myself as a person. I've stumbled a lot of times but this time I really feel like I have the tools and the motivation. I'm just so damn lonely I miss connection deep connection. Feel like all the relationships I have now are so superficial, except with my sober mentor my therapist and other professionals. I meditate a lot and like to hike I feel very deep spiritual connection to this world and people in general....... Just the more I work on my own behavior my own core beliefs the more I see other people's behavior morals and it's just it really hard to connect. I've had girlfriends and been in love most of my life. But now at this age looking for someone who is also sober or at least not an addict it's difficult I feel like I won't be able to meet someone that I truly connect with for quite a while until I build myself back up again. But still so f****** lonely.
Just graduated my fourth time in rehab. I've been doing everything I can to stay sober and improve myself as a person. I've stumbled a lot of times but this time I really feel like I have the tools and the motivation. I'm just so damn lonely I miss connection deep connection. Feel like all the relationships I have now are so superficial, except with my sober mentor my therapist and other professionals. I meditate a lot and like to hike I feel very deep spiritual connection to this world and people in general....... Just the more I work on my own behavior my own core beliefs the more I see other people's behavior morals and it's just it really hard to connect. I've had girlfriends and been in love most of my life. But now at this age looking for someone who is also sober or at least not an addict it's difficult I feel like I won't be able to meet someone that I truly connect with for quite a while until I build myself back up again. But still so f****** lonely.