New OCD subtype?

I’m honestly really distressed over this and I feel like a piece of shit honestly. Recently I’ve been having thoughts that I don’t actually care or like my friends deep down and that I’m “better” than others. I actively try to correct them because I don’t want to believe those things. I really do care about my friends and I enjoy being around them :(. I’ve never had past thoughts/urges like this before and it feels like it’s coming out of nowhere which is part of why I find it so upsetting.

In the past I’ve gotten annoyed at my friends and have badmouthed their behavior to my parents occasionally. Looking back it really wasn’t cool or okay of me to do that and I really want to apologize to them. I’m really worried that I’m subconsciously a fake/shitty friend as a whole and the thought of hurting them makes me want to cry. I also have really bad real event OCD and moral scrupulosity OCD (Even though the events that that I obsess over are not recent and I have since become a better person and people I’ve talked to say that my past actions are forgivable.)

Any advice?