Not being enough affecting social life

So I'm (23M) trying work on things in career. Attempting to freelance in video editing as way to make money. My dream is to be a filmmaker but learning editing to support myself financially.

I have never been good at getting things done on my own in life so I procrastinate a lot and haven't made much progress in the last years and when I see my peers , I realise I've fallen behind. Most of them are working jobs while I'm at my parents house. This has affected my social life. I've started avoiding people. I often get lonely but when I feel I should go out meet people. In the back of my mind, I think I'm not good enough so I cancel on it.

There were some teachers of my school whom I never saw after passing out only because I thought I hadn't done anything worthy to go and talk to them. I wondered what if they were to ask me what have I been doing with my life

Few weeks ago I received the news that one my high school teacher passed away and I felt instant regret of never catching up with her after school. A friend used to tell me that I should go meet, that she often asks about me but I didn't.

I feel I should do something about this other than just "focusing on my grind until I become good enough" while I keep procrastinating and lose the connection with these people.