Why did Kushida do this?

Until now I don't understand why Kushida kept throwing herself or hesitating with Ayanokoji, why she kept trying to compare herself to Horikita? Why did she want Ayanokoji's opinion?

Until now I don't understand why Kushida kept throwing herself or hesitating with Ayanokoji, why she kept trying to compare herself to Horikita? Why did she want Ayanokoji's opinion?