i am lonely

i am 35 (f) and single. never been married. but i really want a family.

i started going back to church, but i find when im there im scoping out potential husbands. which feels so wrong.

obviously i listen to the message and im invested in the Word, but im also scanning before and after church.

i’m starting to think maybe Gods plan for me is to be single? idk does he really want people to not have families?

this is very embarrassing for me to post, btw. i’ll probably delete it soon