Does he secretly want me back? Lol

Maybe I just need a reality check but what does it mean when my ex said he’s still very attracted to me

For context, we’ve known each other since we were 14, and I’m 25 now (he’s 26). We lived together for two and a half years, shared two cats, and had a long history. Our relationship had its ups and downs, especially with the different attachment styles and on top of that there were some financial struggles, but overall we had a deep bond and attraction and were in it for the long haul (talked about getting married etc).

The breakup blindsided me. Late one evening in December, we were cuddling on the couch after work, and everything seemed normal. I was affectionate and tried to initiate intimacy, but he suddenly turned around and told me he wanted to break up. He said he wasn’t satisfied, didn’t feel the relationship was right for him, and thought it was stagnant. He mentioned he couldn’t grow in the relationship either.

I also want to say that I was his first, everything. He was my first boyfriend but not my first everything. Early in the relationship that sort of bothered him I honestly don’t know why I think it was a jealousy thing but we got over it pretty quickly. But sometimes I think he wanted to break up to get to experience more things for himself which is a good thing and I’m proud of him but also I feel like he might be wanting to get back at me. I don’t know honestly