True to form

Today was confrontation day to tell him I knew about the lying and cheating. Talk about a shutdown. Immediate silence and closed off body posture. Didn’t deny it at all, but was ready to run as fast as possible. No excuses, no nothing just ready to end the relationship and run.

I asked if there was something I didn’t provide and why he had to go be with other people in the first place and of course he said he doesn’t know, he just does. He didn’t know what to say. He didn’t know why he did it. He didn’t know anything. Just no answers. Pure silence.

Our great times, our history, our past ment nothing.

He was clearly uncomfortable, but coldness from his response was what hurt the most for me.

I never expected an apology, but I am a little surprised that he didn’t fight for us more. Of course, deep down I know that I can’t be with somebody who lies and cheats because I’ll never be able to trust him, and he also mentioned that it wouldn’t be the same because he thinks I would be spying on him the whole time, but it still hurts.

The way he can just shut it off immediately still hurts.

Even the hug goodbye was pathetic. Multiple pats on the back like it’s somebody you just met, no squeeze.

I can never date a DA again

Hopefully this was to set me up to really really really appreciate the next person. I don’t know if there’s any lower than this so the next one has to be amazing, right?