Will he get help?
It’s been about a week since he decided to end our 3 year long relationship after we just moved in together 3 months ago. Obviously I deal with all the repercussions like dealing with heartbreak and moving out. I’ve come to a point where I need to move on and have closure. So I sent him this text:
This is my closure
You came into my life at a time where we both aligned so perfectly. Like two puzzle pieces. I kept holding on to how we used to be but slowly we started to grow apart. I was growing, you stayed stagnant. It’s apparent to me that after we moved in together our flaws were amplified and because of that I tried my best to minimize the damage done to me. It was wrong of me to constantly ask for change when realistically the answer was there. I was never going to get it and it’s my fault for staying so long. I think you aren’t even emotionally available to yourself, let alone me. You run from being vulnerable and uncomfortable with your emotions. You were taught that at a young age. That’s why you ran when it came down to being vulnerable and changing, because that’s what our relationship came to after years of you being comfortable and staying the same. Instead you want to stay the same and leave. You’re willing to lose me, because of how scared you were to be uncomfortable and be the partner I pleaded you to be. I want to believe you will grow and be the man I’ve always seen you as. But I cannot force you to see you how I see you. I cannot beg someone to be better for me. Love is hard, love is challenging, uncomfortable, unpredictable, and something only some see worth fighting for. That’s how I always saw our love. It was worth the fight, the emotional turmoil I’ve been going through. You made it worth it. You leaving has created a new realization for me that sometimes only one person chooses love and that’s the harsh reality. I know breaking no contact isn’t helpful for me or you. But I cannot sit in silence with these thoughts. This is my last time letting you know I did everything in my power to be with you. You are good enough. You always have been. You are what’s holding you back. I need to grow as well but the difference between you and me is I’m open to change, vulnerability, hard emotions, challenges and struggle. But in the end it takes two for a successful relationship. You were absent. You have a wall up that I can’t force to go down. It’s up to you. I hope with time you recognize how strong my love is for you. How much you meant to me. I’ve been processing a lot and I need to move on since there’s no other choice. I need to set myself free. I tried so desperately to have a healthy relationship and I’m at peace with that. I can be at peace with the fact that I wanted us to grow together and have a healthy relationship. But you simply don’t have the awareness, intelligence or maybe even the love to want that just as much. Instead you’ve lost me, willingly with no fight. That is fact I hope you can live with. Because I can live with the fact that all I ever wanted and fought for was a healthy, successful and unwavering love because I thought that’s what we had.
Do you think he will actually get help after reading it? Or do you think he will disregard what I said. We’ve been no contact for at least 5 days which I know isn’t lone. But I want him to read this and have it click (I highly doubt that will happen). I spoke the truth and nothing but the truth that I hope he sees one day.