AITA for even existing??

I feel like everything I do gets criticized, and I’m honestly at my breaking point. I constantly get scolded for the smallest things, and it feels like my existence is just a constant source of irritation to my brother.

A few days ago, I simply asked my mother if I could eat chicken. My brother, who was a few meters away, immediately said no, even though I wasn’t asking him. Now, when I asked for something different, he still said no. It felt like he didn’t want me to eat anything other than what he approved of.

More recently, I was using my phone, just checking my studies with ChatGPT (nothing major, just ensuring my wording was correct). My brother found out and scolded me for using it. He has used it for his university exams without any issue, but when I use it for studying, it’s somehow cheating. He then went on to accuse me of doing the same thing when I was just looking for a PDF because I left my textbook at school.

But here’s where things got worse: He was sitting on a chair, and I was trying to take my phone back. He pulled me by the arm, and in the process, pushed the chair so hard that my knee got squeezed between the metal part of the chair and the sofa. It left a painful bruise. I tried to stand up for myself and explain that what he did hurt, but he just ignored it and never apologized.

Another time, when I was trying to roll a ball for a voucher, it kept rolling off the tray. I wasn’t doing it on purpose, but I was scolded for it anyway. I get in trouble for even the smallest mistakes, and there’s no space to make them without getting harshly reprimanded.

He also constantly takes my phone without asking. When I ask for it back after he’s played games on it for way longer than promised, he either ignores me or makes excuses. If I try to stand up for myself, I get scolded even more.

It feels like no matter what I do, I’m always wrong in his eyes, and if I try to defend myself, I’m just punished more. It’s exhausting, and I feel like I can’t win.

So, AITA for even existing in this world? I don’t feel like I can do anything right.

If my brother is seeing this : I hate you so much you make me feel i dont have any use in life and once i wanted to k*ll myself for months because of you. Please stop this tortue you call teaching me a lesson.